The winter holiday has not always been kind in the Pacific Northwest. 2022; this previous year has been the coldest, though brief, it served its purpose in demoralizing the masses.
Each year I would spend the majority of the days around Christmas alone as my partner (Joshua Ryan Brown) through the years would visit the remnants of his divided family. A day with his Mother's side of the family, and another with his Father's. I was never invited.
Seven years and I could never spend a full Christmas holiday with him. The holidays were always bittersweet like that and I couldn't find it in me to hold it against him. He has no real choice in the matter or is perhaps just unwilling to make any other decisions.
Though this year a decision was made without me; He decided to break up with me on a whim a week before Christmas. Then left me alone without a word for three days without any information or real plan to move on. I was blindsided and lost without a clue as to what would happen in the next weeks.
Then his plan surfaced. He didn't feel the want anymore to continue paying for the place we were living in, yet felt the requirement to use others resources to break the lease and essentially force my way out within weeks. He wanted to go back to a simpler life where he could rely on his friends to make a living for him. He left his primary career for a decided step back from responsibilities. This decision was the last nail in the coffin. (Then I find out that he's been cheating ontop of everything with the first piece of tail that gets his Dick hard. With a Raul llasa a little homewrecker The fucker.)
Seven years and I could never win the time I wanted. Seven years of cold winters to spend alone. Yes, he would come back late on Christmas day, but all of his spirits would be spent by then. As I said, bittersweet.
Seven years and with each revolution, a snowstorm. But this snowstorm would be the last. And I would have to relocate the entirety of my life before it's over.
And so I have... but not without the most important people at my side. They have shown resilience to my problems and have helped me out immensely in such a short amount of time. For seven years I thought I was in this alone. I felt a short amount of hope.
But now I'm overjoyed. Even in the midst of a crippling and freezing snowstorm, friends (old and new), and family have surfaced and helped me to pick up the pieces. And for this, I am thankful.
